Just want to feel good. Was okay for few days though up and down. Brain still have some sort of numbing feeling. Trying to live. Called brother but he didn't pick up. Sending live vibrations to my family hoping that they will love me back and all of them talk to me again and love me. Want love. Sending love vibration to people I know since that is all I can do. Rough night of sleep. Would like to peacefully sleep through the night again.