Zinco is right in that cutting is an addictive behaviour. I have been doing it for ten years nearly, I stopped once for 11 months a few years into it but haven't been able to since. The longest I can go now without is a month or two. As time goes by you don't get as much out of the cuts as you once did so the cuts end up getting deeper and more of them just to get the same kind of release you once had.

I think you need to work with your T and pdoc to get you to stop this before you get too far into it. I wish I had never started...and I definitely wish I had found a way to quit by now.

Here's a sticky from the self injury forum, hopefully you will find something on here that will help the urges rather than cutting

http://forums.psychcentral.com/self-...-yourself.html