Depression used to be a much bigger problem than it has been these past few years. Every day, all day, used to be pain. Now, for the most part, I'm a pretty happy and positive person.

Still, every once in awhile, it comes back and lasts for weeks on end... sometimes more. The things I say to myself about myself are cruel and awful and unfair at these times, and try as I might to correct myself at times like these it's... it's just a struggle.

Right now I'm having a mix of good and bad days, which is an upgrade from a few weeks in total depression hell...

So, my question: since I can't afford psychotherapy I'm probably going to end up at one of the many happy-pill pushing doctors in the area. I'm worried though, because I'd end up medicating my bad moods with pills whenever they come up, rather than on a regular basis as a kind of preventative. Isn't that inherently dangerous? Doesn't that establish some really bad instincts for how to deal with my problems?