Hi, new to the forum. But hearing your stories I can relate 100%. I was diagnosed with fibro almost 15 years ago but I've been living with it a lot longer than that. I'm 43 married with two children 9 & 11. I've had a lot of health problems over the past 4 yrs and been in and out of the hospital. Finally last October I went through major surgery that was a success. I thought for sure I could start to live a normal active life again. I was looking forward to actually participating in my children's life's again instead of watching from the sidelines but that hasn't been the case. My fibro has actually gotten worse. I think it might have to do with the brain focusing on my other pain and also the fact that I was on Vicodin every 4 hrs for 4 1/2 years just to control the abdominal pain I had. I am on Lyrica now. I've always called it my miracle drug but it's just not working the way it use to. I can't take a lot of the medication normally given to people with fibro because of my bipolar. I've always been a strong person but I'm starting to give up hope that I will ever be pain free. I'm so exhausted all the time mentally and physically. The pain just wipes out every trace of energy I have and then the guilt sets in. I'm so tired of watching my kids have fun without me. I'm tired of being in pain all the time and trying to explain to my family and friends why I don't want to go out and do things with them. I use to be so physically active now I am in a constant battle with my weight even when I eat right I only lose a couple of pounds. So then I starve myself and lose 20 lbs only to put it back on in a week. I can gain 10 lbs in two days. I know it's the Lyrica that contributes to some of this. But if I stop taking it the pain becomes unbearable. I was walking 3-5 miles a day that helped but then I had surgery and shortly after that I fell on the ice and broke my ankle and had to have surgery after that. Of course the depression set in and all I did was eat junk and gain 50 lbs. thankfully for now the depression has lifted. I use to be so optimistic always happy but as the years go by and the pain continues I find it hard to be optimistic. Im not the poor me type it doesn't do any good but I've been asking why me a lot lately.

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