hmm ok...i feel so ashamed because i've been judged a lot for this...
but now and here i must say it...i'm addicted to a famous celebrity here for 4-5 years now
i'm not stalking him, never did and never will
but everyday i try to find new photos or any new information(articles videos,blogs etc)
sometimes i feel i'm longing for it like thirsty person for water
i don't occupy myself only with that all day long 24/7, but everything else i'm doing is reminds me of him and i get back to same place
it's got worse when 2-3 years ago i heard he's in relationship and in that moment-i feel it like it was only yesterday...i felt like he ripped off my heart, then smashed it to pieces and put it back
the worst thing is that i still feel it today and still have feelings(and i feel so stupid that)...
every time i see him in new photos or short videos in his twitter or his instagram,
and he smiling and happy it makes me cry because it is someone else who makes him feel like that and not i
i tried so many times to get over him but nothing helped until now,
i believe it's because like with anything else in my life, and in this case too - i just feel i'm totally devoted to this like with everything else in my life
i'm acting mostly from and with my emotions and it's so hard for me to think logically about this...