I really hope you get through this. For me it stays a struggle too, but I'm always thinking that if I'd run away of try to ignore it (by slowly removing myself, bit by bit) my issue will still be there. Maybe not with this T, but at some point in the future maybe with someone else... or it will linger underneath the surface and never get fixed. So yes, I think it's good to work through it, to grab the opportunity now that it's there. And it is a very scary thing. But exactly as NoddaProbBob says, sometimes what we need and what we want is not aligned. That's painful and frustrating, but I guess also a source of material to learn from.
So I wish for you that you can talk about it with your T, so that you can work on it. I do think it's possible without reducing sessions, but only if you're both aware of what is going on and are willing to address it in therapy.