I didn't respond to the drunk encounters cause I had a lot to say. We only actually had drunk sex once. The other times we were sober. He's only witnessed me drunk in person once, which fortunately he was also drunk enough not to remember. But unfortunately drunk enough to not use proper protection which led to my pregnancy. My addiction to alcohol was something he saw in phone calls and drunk dialing/voicemails. Really something I didn't control. Until now. I have been sober since the incident and I plan on going to AA meetings. I got drunk every time he did something to upset me. It was my way of venting. Last time, was probably the last straw for him. Which was why I kept my distance. I got upset cause after sleeping with me. I tagged him on Facebook thanking him for being my first visitor at my new apartment. I didn't mention we had sex. I thought it was friendly. He didn't like it and as soon as he saw it immediately untagged himself. I confronted him about it for a week. He chose to ignore every message. That's when I got drunk and upset. I don't like the way he treats me. And I know I'm equally at fault for drinking. Something I am working on to fix. But it baffles me how he thinks he has done nothing wrong, even when I'm trying. He knows I like him more than a friend. I've told him this many of times. I guess he chose to ignore it and just use me when he wants sex and blows me off the rest of the time. I've given up on him showing any compassion or empathy for the loss of our baby. Probably to him, it was a good thing. Or something he feels indifferent about. I have a book I'm working on for the steps to help me heal and forgive him. Not forgive for him. But for myself so I can find peace