Take your AP. You do much better when you're taking it, and God knows you are under enough stress right now to make even a neurotypical go bonkers. Take it early in the evening so you can get your full night's sleep and still be functional the next day. It shouldn't matter if you "look drugged".....this isn't a beauty contest, it's about getting (and staying) well enough to meet the challenges you're facing. Stay on your meds!