Some people are better at handling change than others - and life, rightly or wrongly, is ever changing. What do you think you need in order to feel more secure? Closer relationships? Better financial stability? Faith or maybe freedom from religion? Someone once said to me that the 'point' of it all is serendipity amidst the chaos - maybe for you that would be a better way of looking at things? Sorry if i've not been too helpful, i hope you feel you can elaborate