hi crazy poppy lady
our mental illness really isn't funny...the way these thought control us. I was just telling t this morning that things will never be ok. she tries to assure me but she isn't mentally ill so she will never understand. I know my thoughts are ridiculous but that doesn't make them any less powerful over me. im agoraphobic and when I try to leave the house, I am convinced if I open the door, the light beams will evaporate me into a cloud of dust. I even think the door handle will burn me. I know these things wont happen but it sure feels real and keeps me from opening that door. so know you are not alone. take care.