I'm mostly copying and pasting from my member intro thread although I did post this in the anxiety forum, I thought why not here because I just need different opinions on what this could be.

Now, another thing that started occuring around the time the horrid anxiety came (after the major depression episodes a couple of years back, I've been suffering from major depression for 5 years already) is that I started hearing voices inside my head at night way more often than I used to (Ive always had, but never remembered. Now I'm conscious and not near sleep when it happens. To me, it seems like sharded memories interrupting my thought process since it feels like I've heard them before, MOST of them. It's mostly garbled, I can't really understand it except a few words here and there). It rarely happens during the day but when it does, it's outside my head and it really scares me. My therapist believes it's that my depression has psychotic features.
One thing that is really bothering me now is that now I've gotten so scared and paranoid that whenever I hear someone around me whisper or talk quietly, I can't decipher whether it's in my head or not. I verify that they're actually other people around me but I can't help but feeling they're inside my head and it's not true. I can't decipher what I actually heard or not. This is exacerbated by my huge dissociating problem (it's so bad that at random times during the day I would be talking to my friends and suddenly feel like my voice is not mine, it's someone else talking and it's not me).
My therapist keeps urging my parents to take me to the psychiatrist but they are strictly against it. We've tried everything except meds but my anxiety and depression does not appease and she believes they would really help me. My parents are the type to believe that psychiatrists and meds are for insane people. They don't know about the voices though I need help.

Also, another thing that has been happening a lot is that when I am in a bad dissociation episode (the dissociation is getting really bad) sometimes when I say something or I move my head or take a step, it feels like I never did/never said it, but at the same time it's like I never stopped doing it. It's kind of difficult to describe, it's like in those movies when they do slow motion and you see past images of them trailing behind their every moment, it's kind of like that. It's a very odd feeling and I don't like it at all.

Please can someone tell me what's going on and if this is normal. I would really appreciate it. (Sorry for the extremely long post)