Thanks
You are right...it's a start!

The reason I'm here is because I don't know what small steps to take, though...I feel "blocked" and I'm not sure by what. I mean, if I'm not openly myself I won't find the relevant company, right? Yet at the same time, I'm trying to speak everyone's "language"...mostly cause I know expecting from others to understand me first is usually unrealistic (let's face it, I'm a strange person...at my 22 I still had imaginary friends. By choice. How crazy is that? I'm not confessing such things even to my best friend, but it tells something about who I am ) I'm not afraid to screw up every so and then-ok, I'm anxious, but no one has died by talking weird. However, people have their limits, and I'm not confident I know them yet.