I've been posting on some of the other forums, but this is my first time posting on this one. Seems fitting after taking the quizzes though, seeing as I scored very high for a BPD. Of course, it seems like I scored high for several things. Apparently, I'm a real mess. According to the personality test I took, I have a fear of abandonment. Explains the diagnosis of BPD though doesn't it? Of course, growing up in a family where it was like you didn't exist, except when I was abused by my father, could be why I have this problem. My mother focused all her attention on my sister, no matter what I did. I had perfect grades. I was perfectly behaved, it didn't matter. Then when I got a little older, I started to rebel, and I would drink and come home late, it didn't matter. Still, my sister always did something worse or more important. Even as adults, it was still evident that she showed favoritism to her. I don't think it was on purpose, but that doesn't make it any less painful.