Okay so many of you know that my insurance company is on my last nerve.

At today's session, I learned that they demanded a graduation date for my therapy. T and I have not discussed a graduation date definitively and quite frankly, I am beyond mad that they demanded this. This should be up to me and my T...

So, he gave them one and I'm not mad about it. He had to do what he had to do. They haven't called him back since.

Luckily, we are changing insurances from an HMO to a PPO and this policy has unlimited outpatient sessions. It will cost us more with the deductibles etc. but it is so worth it. It will be effective by July 1st.

Overall my session went well. I told my T that I have been thinking about his past comments about my needing to learn to be assertive rather than aggressive. I said that I was starting to do that last session and how uncomfortable it was.

He commented that he can see that it was helpful for me and he seemed glad that I said what I said about how I've been worrying about him trying to get rid of me and the insurance issue seemed to confirm it in my mind.

I also told him that my husband commented today 'oh you must be seeing Dr. T today you are wearing a skirt'. I told him that he was joking around with me and I know he didn't mean anything by it.

All my T said was 'oh gosh tell him it would be a crime for me to sleep with you'...it isn't necessary though. That isn't what my husband meant. He was referring to my dressing up to see my T. Things are going much better with my husband and we are talking about a lot more.

T asked me why I think things have improved recently? I'm pondering this. I said because I've been sharing more with him about the sessions and he likes hearing about it. I am also focusing on being more assertive with my husband and not critical or aggressive so maybe he's responding better to me. He is just trying more overall.

Well, have a good day everyone. My goal for the rest of this week is to not look for some hidden negative meaning in anything that my T said today. I can't wait to see him again on Tuesday! I'm hoping I can say more about how I feel about him.

We'll see....