Boy, right when I was doing a lot better I got hit again. I'm sure a lot of you have dealt with something like this.
I had a very best friend for five years. We were like sisters and we traveled together often. (She lives in another state.) At the end of that five years, I went incredibly manic and she broke off our friendship for three years. Now she is back and says that we are best friends again. My husband and I visited them for a week and they came over here for a week. So all seemed well
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The problem is that I miss her all the time. My heart really hurts to see and talk to her. I have no idea why I am so fixated on her to fill me up emotionally. I have many friends and supportive family right here. I have good doctors, a support group in real life and of course, all of you on here.

Today I texted her and asked her if we could set a date for us to get together again, either with our husbands or not.This would give me something to look forward to. She replied that she was way too busy to schedule anything now. (Neither of us work.) She also told me that I need to get busier and she cannot fill the void I have. We text almost every day briefly and talk maybe once a week.

If I am objective, I think she does want to be best friends, but she is very busy with her own life and doesn't have time for me to be clingy or needy or too depressed. I know for my own part she is really triggering me. I am sitting here crying when I have not for over a week. I've got to come out of this depression and quit needing her.

I thought it might be a good idea to stop texting her and just to break contact for a while. That would let her see that I can live my own life and give me a break from her saying triggering comments.

How do you break the cycle of contacting a friend like this? It's hard to have willpower when you are down. I try and try to only be positive and not needy when I text her but it isn't working.

Please don't tell me to get busier. I am doing a LOT of stuff right now for the level of depression that I have. If I put any more on my plate I will break down again and have to start lying to ppl about why I can't do things. I don't want to go down that road again.

I have a t but don't see her for a week. I was hoping you could give me some tips on standing on my own two feet and quit being so needy.

Love to all of you. Lily