I agree with fluffbuster, you need to see a psychiatrist and that you should do whatever it takes to get an appointment.
To offer a little reassurance, what you are experiencing isn't unusual, many other people will have had similar experiences and although you are obviously distressed you do seem to have a good level of insight. So there is a very good chance that with the right meds / intervention these symptoms should start to settle down.
Take care.
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