My T called me today because he had to change the date of our next session. He had some time and started a conversation with me and I was able tell him I didn't really like psychology sometimes because every diagnosis is so negative. I asked him what possible benefit could come from describing myself as someone who suffers from BPD. Among other things he said that many BPD sufferers tend to be good people at heart, but they have just had bad things happen to them. They learn defense mechanisms and ways of reacting to things that cause problems. When they start to understand the source of their problem behavior, they can improve. He also said that not long ago, many therapists didn't really like working with BPD, because they were difficult to reach. But, that attitude is changing.

It made me feel a lot better about myself.