I need to know something very important here. Each and every day I actually notice that my depression has made a significant improvement each and every one of those days. But I am up to the point where I no longer feel what one would call depression (hopelessness). Now I am at the point where I instead constantly (24/7) feel no pleasure at all and I notice that this is something that is not improving at all as days go by. This lack of pleasure is too much and I feel that because it is not improving like how my depression did, I feel that there is a possibility that it will remain this way for the rest of my life. If I knew that this would be something that would last for the rest of my life, I would end my life.

As I stated before, a certain level of depression is necessary to prevent me from experiencing this fear and it would definitely seem that this level of depression that I'm at now is that level. If it were to go anywhere below that level, that will cause the fear to return which is obviously the reason why it is stuck at this level and not getting better. Therefore, how is it ever supposed to get better in this situation? This is the reason why I ask if people in my exact situation have had their level of depression that was necessary to hold off their fears somehow get better. Again, it does not matter how much I address the source of my depression (the fear). As long as I have the fear (even if it is at a very low level), that will cause the depression to still remain there holding off the fear.