Some people say post traumatic stress syndrome.

Words are just words. Latest hospital says major recurring depressive disorder and borderline traits. Yup. Ptsd is major recurring depressive disorder and borderline traits. The only difference is when they think I'm a crypto veteran sneaking into a civilian hospital for nefarious purposes they are all afraid and paranoid I want to kill them. When they think I'm borderline they think they have to control my manipulative urges to shower at night by enforcing strict dorm boundaries and denying me towels.

I've gotten pretty good at guessing my dx by the histrionics of the stupider young nurses and "mental health workers". Adult men and medical doctors get me. And some lovely young nurses and mental health workers are uniformly courteous to all. These are fine people. I wish there were a God to bless them. There's just us. But you know, maybe if I try real hard to remember every pleasant and professional person and every act of dignified courtesy, I not only increase my serotonin, but just maybe we are all connected and in some.way They know They helped.