Hi blwi3310, thanks for that Your current mood status actually describes my situation perfectly, I too am torn as to what to do. You are right, no doubt, that I should make the first move, but I'm just so afraid, so afraid of failing again. I promised myself that I would not bother her, I erased her contact details totally so as to take away the temptation. I know she wants nothing to do with me, I know she doesn't love me. So I really don't know what to do. I would never want to force her into anything, having to deal with me if she really just isn't up to it. I'm the one that loves her (i.e. I'm the one with the problem/issue) not the other way around. I think she doesn't even like me probably. I know I've got to let her go, it's just so hard .