This might be what I'm looking for. I had suicide thought come into my mind and ruined my whole day because I upset my friend. Though it probably didn't upset her as much as me. I just don't want those thoughts to come into my mind. Period! I just don't want it to be automatic because my life has become difficult. I want my life from the past that at the time I thought wasn't good but actually was much better than now. I just want the thought to stop. So I don't really know how the pledge works as this thread was long for me to read all the way through. I figure it is about not doing anything for 24 hours. My thoughts never lead to action, it is just thought that causes me to feel horrible. I just want it to stop.