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Old Jul 15, 2014, 06:58 AM
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Originally Posted by MisterUnderstood View Post
Hey all, so I'm wondering if what I have is common with all borderlines... I know that we all have issues with relationships for the most part, and I am the stereotypical intense at the beginning, unstable after a couple days, almost like the movie Fatal Attraction with Glenn Close. I'm wondering if after somebody says something that REALLY upsets you, like really gets under your skin, do any of you go out on an all-out war almost and just attempt to destroy the other person emotionally? Like I will use the worst thing I can find about somebody and then basically stab them with it. For example, if I know somebody was in an abusive relationship with their father, and they make me feel like *****, I'll say something like "Well, look! You're turning into your father! Abusive and selfish." Or "Wow, maybe your father should've just killed you when he had the chance." I know it's absolutely HORRIBLE, but they just kinda come out... Almost like I want them to feel the same kind of pain I feel they caused me. I'll use anything I can throw at them as ammunition, and it's extremely bad because I can't have a relationship for more than 5 days without getting upset and snapping.... If anyone has this symptom, can you please give me some tips on how to help it? I'm honestly struggling so hard with this and it's like I'm always ready to blow.. :/ Thank you.
idk if i would use the term "all out war" but if i get hurt i can get pretty nasty, generally when i go into devaluation mode, i will try to ignore the person or just cut them off all together..but if confrontation is unavoidable i have a variety of tactics to get my point across.

if my many various forms of manipulation don't work, i've got some passive aggressive tricks up my sleeve.

i'm really trying to work on this so nowadays i make it a point if i am seeing someone, i don't talk to them everyday or see them everyday, to keep myself from becoming so attached so quickly...i have learned to take things very slowly instead of my usual "ok we have been seeing each other for a few days or a week i'm ready for her to move in" routine.

it may still cross my mind, but i know it's better to wait and feel everything out and keep a handle on my BPD, so try your acquaintances in "small doses"
and maybe it will help you get past the 5 day mark!
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