You keep talking about not being real. Like if you were perfect you would be real and he would not have left you. But there is a lot of illogic in there. #1. ALL people are real. You hit them, they hurt. #2 No one is perfect, though some are very good at giving the illusion that they are or that you should be (the latter is not nice, not a perfect person), #3. That if you were real (which you are) and perfect (which no one is) he would not have left you). Not true.

I know it hurts. And it is really hard when you don't have friends to hang out with. But just act as though you are glad to be rid of him. Who needs a womanizer? Not you! Keep your chin up kiddo!