Hi, well its come to this, my h mother, who is in home hospice, is now close to her final days. They have given her 3 to 5 days at the most, she is shutting down. Even though my experience with this woman, has not been good. its still very hard to see a person deteriorate right before your eyes, and whats affecting me, is everyone elses emotions.

My h and his brothers do not do feelings and emotions very well, needless to say, I shut down as well. so it finally hit h. I called hospice social worker/therapist, she has been great. She comes by 3 times a week to talk to me, checks on my anxiety and coping skills and calls me everyday, go figure, I have a t, and a hospice t. (lol) she is now dealing with h and his feelings as well as mine.

This situation is very triggering for me, as it reminds me of my uncle. I dont have therapy this week as its staff day on wednesday and t has no openings, t does not know the latest with my mother in law.

I am greatful for the hospice social worker , but I really would prefer to talk to my t. Having someone die before you, who at all costs is fighting it, is very hard. The thing is I dont feel sad or anything, I feel sad for my h. Like I said my emotions are for the people feeling the emotions, is that wierd.