mouse my heart breaks for you.

my path is not the same but similar enough.

letting go of something like that is hard, painful, and feels like a disloyalty. it feels like letting go of part of your self.

I had something similar and it was what i clung to and fantasized about and thought i could make it happen if I tried hard to be 'good' enough.

I remember your post about the train, mouse. I, too, want a train to come. A train to take me back... to have what I wanted and needed and longed for and waited and waited for... and still look for. I think the train station is therapy.. a place to sit and relax a while and try to sort out where you came from and where you're going.

Mouse, I'm sure there is much more underneath the layer of the 'waiting' for us.



ECHOES