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For awhile before things got super bad for me, I too was indulging in more beverages than I should. Only for me, on the nights I drank, I wouldn't take my meds, as to not "mix" them. Retarded, I know.
It went from a few beers or drinks on the weekends to a few during the week until it was almost a few a night.
For me, I think it was because things were going so well and I was so stable- I was drinking. These feelings of normalcy we begin to feel are foreign to us, even though they are good. It is uncomfortable so we treat them like we have always treated uncomfortable feelings in the past (drinking).
Force yourself to not drink on a night you want to, show yourself you can NOT drink if you choose. More important, force yourself to embrace the feelings of life being good, once these are familiar to you-you won't want to run from them.
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