So I guess the overall theme here is that it may be a little excessive, but it's a normal part of devaluation. I actually have a therapist appointment today, and I'm switching psychiatrists soon, so I'm hoping that there will be a way to help me work past this. I went to a therapist for about 6-8 months previously, once a week, and didn't really make much progress, but tbh, I think it was because instead of focusing on practical solutions to help with my rage and mood swings, he was more of a meditation and relaxation kind of person, which really just didn't click with me. Tbh I don't know what I expect therapy to do. I really have no basis at all on how to learn anything. Although on the plus side, I'm very calm right now, being on Vicodin for my wisdom teeth haha. Too bad this stuff is addictive. Oh, and speaking of... Is it a stereotype or is it really true that borderlines have very addictive personalities? I mean, I've been smoking for almost a year, and I can go days or even a week without smoking. So I wouldn't say I have an addictive personality, although that might just be self-serving bias so..