I am tired too, and I understand what you mean, but you know there is many people here that are not in vacations, or feeling great, and so on ...

You are not alone, may be will help to focus more in your own feelings and see how to cope with your MH as much as its sucks than thinking about others. I have felt what you felt, don't take me wrong please. Just trying to be here for you and for all of us including myself.