Hey Jinn. Chins up hon. Glad you got some meds, but just remember, all of this is in your mind and is not real. I know it's alot easier to say that than to believe it, I just wish you could get some relief.

Ever see the movie "What about Bob"? The part where the doctor gets fed up with Bill Murray and tells him "I am giving you a prescription, a prescription to take a vacation, a vacation away from your problems". Maybe that's something you could do One weekend, just tell yourself "Ok, this is MY TIME and MY TIME ONLY. I am on vacation from my problems and I am NOT going to worry about them AT ALL this weekend." Just focus on things that you love to do, and do them.

I know you are going through some pain, and I hope you can find relief. Remember, it is not your fault that you are having these issues, so never blame yourself, and never ask forgiveness.

Gaston