The biggest reason for posting here is to see if by chance there may be other men like me. I assume we men and women think differently so this anorexia thing is going to be caused by some different sort of mentality. I've been going through my head as to the "why?".

This is called an eating disorder but I see it as a "state of mind" seeing I have no problem with eating. I have a mental problem.... a "fat phobia" which may be a better term to fit me personally.

My wife thinks I'm too boney. I think I look just perfect at this peticular point. I've been watching myself since the end of last summer when this all started. I finally admitted to myself that, yea, I think I have anorexia or I certainly acting like one.

I'm looking at two pictured of myself, one when I was 125 last Sept. and second at 120, Jan. after getting well into working out. The difference of me buffed and unbuffed...wow! But also more noticably getting boney... chiseled looking.

Oh yea, and I haven't said a thing to my wife for fear of her reaction. Oh one night she actually looked at me and flipped. " Your...your a bean pole!... You look anorexia!" was her exact words. "You need to gain like 10 pounds! How much do you weight?" So I said and at the time, "122." She flips, says my name... "You look like a stick!" Well, oh well. So I just keep this all to myself... pig out in front of her and deprive myself later... she just can't figure it out.

Oryan