Well someone that I would call my best friend is suddenly moving away. I knew about his wishes to move but I didn't think it would be this fast. I could tell him anything. Anyways I guess he is moving tomorrow. I saw him on Sunday and gave him a big warm hug and wished him the best, but inside I was crumbling. After he left I cried. I still feel like crying. Ever since he left my mood has been low and continuing to decline. I haven't felt like this in a long time. Maybe finally with the right combo of meds I can feel emotion again. But I just don't want to do anything. I forced myself to crawl out of bed today, and I'm forcing myself to go to work, but my attitude is so in the toilet I'm not sure I will be pleasant to be around. Anyways that is my complex for the time being. I am hoping it lifts soon, because I have had fleeting thoughts of just ending it, and i have NOT had those feelings in a very LONG time. It's not like he is moving far away per se. He's only moving to Pittsburgh, and I'm Erie. But still I am so depressed. It sucks.