Hello, I hope everybody's fine…
I'd like to ask something, maybe somebody knows, maybe… 
I've been having psychological problems, OCD, since I was a child. But me & my family didn't recognize it until it exacerbated in 2000 when I started high school. And now it's 14 years later… 2014, & everything is just getting worse!
I've got Pure Obsessions, OCD, bipolar, perfectionism, delusions of persecution, & I don't know what else.
Yes, I went to doctors… I went to over a dozen psychiatrists since 2000, but here in Egypt most of them seem to only give me drugs, & no psychotherapy, that I've given up on going to them or finding one who makes psychotherapy anymore…
I've even searched for online therapists, but they all seem so expensive. Like the least is 80$ per email!
I've even said to myself I'll make psychotherapy with myself by searching over the internet & reading psychcentral & other sites… But I just can't seem to keep on depending on myself & reading! I always say like I'd start searching & reading by myself from tomorrow, like 1/2 hour everyday, but then after a week I stop & I never continue, I don't why!
14 years of my life have been wasted, & I don't have a life anymore, no friends no family no degree no nothing, & I can't find proper therapy! Or is it that I don't have enough will to find therapy? Or is it that my OCD keeps stopping me from continuing to find proper therapy? Or what or what or what? I don't know what to do anymore with my life… 