Crummy session! I feel totally awful. Sitting in my car crying! She said she never implied I'm bisexual. End of that discussion.

I told her how hard 2 weeks is and she suggested journaling after the session and only emailing her after 1 week. She wants me to stay connected internally so would rather I don't email at all. She asked if I had anything of hers and I reminded her of the heart stone she gave me once, and a recording of a visualization. I also said I read over old emails when she used to answer me.

I told her I miss being able to tell her the things I'm doing during the week so she asked if I had someone who wants to hear. I said I don't. I asked about her emailing me hi or a short phone call but she doesn't want to do that.

I forgot about holding her hand so we only had 5 minutes left and she told me we had to stop on time because the next person was on a tight schedule.

I said I had the urge to google her and go on FB and she said there's nothing new there. I said I wanted to know something new about her and all she came up with was that she got a new laptop which was right there.

I tried to talk about sex so she said why don't I let it go since I don't like it and my H isn't interested.

She was tired today and yawned a few times. I feel totally disconnected to her and I don't want to leave the parking lot.

What can I do? I understand needing to internalize her and not need her so I can quit therapy but it hurts so much. She's the one I want to turn to but she doesn't want me to. Maybe I just need to quit now. Please can I have hugs and support but please don't criticize my T.