I'm so sorry you're struggling. I can imagine it's incredibly tiring it is to deal with those issues so long.

If it helps, there are some relatively affordable online services for therapy: here are a couple I looked up recently: For Talktala, the rates run $100 a month for email if you pay for a month in advance, less if you pay a year in advance, more if you pay by the week, with a one week free trial. Therapyq charges $140 per month, also with a one week free trial. That's for email type exchanges, as much as you and your therapist are willing to do. Talktala also offers face to face online sessions at $29 for 30 minutes, so $58 an hour.

I hope you get some relief soon!
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