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Originally Posted by Wysteria
Dear Leah,
It seems you have a right to be fussy with your T right now over the billing issues and time management. There is probably some errors on both sides that need to be clarified and rectified...
But I guess what I hear most is how stressed out you are and how much you are managing overall. I think that if you were not already so overwhelmed, this issue could have been dealt with more easily and the time spent detailing it and worrying about it would not have caused so much hurt.
I wondered if maybe it is time to just step back a little and think about which priorities in your life really need the extra time and attention and how you can get the support you need right now to handle an extremely heavy load. Can others facilitate you any more? Can you let a few things go or be more relaxed than normal while doing so much? Can you do something else to pat yourself on the back and get some encouragement for all that you are doing? I know money is tight with school and family and T...is there anything else that can help ease that stress a bit? Perhaps just flat out journaling until your fingers are numb to release some of that frustration? Maybe a long bath and pedicure at home with large sign saying DO NOT DISTURB for an hour??
I guess I'm just hoping that you can also be extra kind to yourself and perhaps get some extra perspective in terms of just how much you are doing. I'm really proud of you for being able to do all of this and for sticking up for yourself. I am in NO WAY invalidating your feelings about T and boundaries and money issues. You have legitimate concerns in many areas that need to be addressed.
Gently,
Wysteria Blue
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Thanks, you sound like my T, in a good way, lol. She's often helped me find ways to make time for self-care. I thought I was getting pretty good at it, but I'm struggling to keep up right now. I was managing school and work, then they both got harder.
But, I am just about to take a break and try for a nap and then I have a massage scheduled tomorrow. I go once per month for stress and to help with the PTSD, so that's good timing. I will try and squeeze a self-mani in tonight, the only main priorities I have today are homework and my daughter's medical care.
I've tried to let go of a lot, like lowering my Martha Stewart standards for the house, and I let my in-laws and hubby help more, like having my kiddo spend the night this past Sunday and asking hubby to do the grocery shopping and make dinner. After all... if he was single, he'd have to do them lol.
I feel like it's hard to keep up, but... hopefully in a few days I'll feel better. I think I got extra stressed from some trouble at work and school and my mom staying here on the long weekend and hopefully that should all ease up a bit.
If I skip therapy Friday, it's another $100 I don't have to worry about, sigh, but yeah, who knows how I'll feel by then. Maybe I do need a summer vacation from therapy though... might be nice to turn my thoughts to other things and have those 4 hours and $400 unspent.... (who am I kidding, I'm sure I won't want two whole weeks off, ha.)
I can' hardly decide anything atm, though, too bleary eyed, lol, going to try for that nap. Thanks for the good advice.
And thanks everyone for posting, I find it very helpful and comforting.