I think it's a combination of things. I moved to a new town across the state to take the job and am not comfortable here yet. I haven't been interested in what I've had to do lately, which is affecting my attitude. I've also had a manic and now a huge depressive episode (in the middle of it) since coming here. My boss doesn't know about my mental health issues, just sees I'm not producing and not coming to work. I keep waiting for the hammer to drop every day I go in and he wonders where my stuff is. (Of course, I'm working on 2 things I don't have a deadline for, which isn't helping.)

The last time I had this level of anxiety about a job, it really was the job. This time there's so much to sort out I don't know what it is! but I'm starting to get afraid of being fired.

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