Why do we hold back in therapy? All the things you mentioned...... and some stuff is just buried too deep and takes a long time to access.....

Please don't go away, you aren't a bother! Sounds like your mind was playing tricks on you like mine does.

And your insight about jealousy as well as abandonment is probably spot on, its a hard emotion to admit to, so many don't even admit it to themselves!!

Not sure if the mental running away, fogginess, anxiety and distress is dissociating but I get it a lot

Grrrrrrrr at the abdominal surgery. I hope you stay healthy physically from now on as you deserve to!!