Ipsit, so sorry this is so tough for you, so tough that you felt you needed to take a break from it all....
Therapy is not a place where your rational mind needs to be present. Really. It's a place where, if you feel safe, you can talk about your emotional experiences; those you are experiencing vis a vis your therapist are most useful to work through.
I don't know if you've been seeing Judy once or twice a week, perhaps you mentioned it in your first post and I'm not recalling now... but what I want to say is that if you are having such a strong reaction to what's going on in therapy you may benefit from more than a once-a-week session. Perhaps, when you are ready to face this and work through it so that you may heal, you can communicate to your therapist how difficult this is for you and would you be able to have more support such as twice-weekly sessions, or between-session telephone calls, to help contain the intensity of the experience.
The way I see it, you're in pain either way: you are in immense agony when you meet with her, y'know the whole self-hatred/I'm-unlovable thing....and you are in no less pain when you walk away from therapy, alone and in pain.
Dear you, at least in therapy there's a chance you'll heal from it all....It's like removing a band-aid thus exposing the wound, it hurts real bad, but sooner or later the exposed wound heals....
In the meantime, take gentle care of yourself,
Take care,