I am taking my meds. Ap is optional and new pdoc didn't even want to proscribe it to me. She asked if me and my T got along. My husband had to pretty much beg. I do generally take my meds but it's been a crappy couple of months. Part of it being stable mood wise but nowhere near sain. I stopped taking the AP because it made me gain weight through content thirst.

. My dad is already getting on my case about even taking psych meds and how if my husband got a job I wouldn't be stress. How side effects are worse then the illness and your body will eventually fix it's self. Blah...blah..blah.. looking drugged is not a good option. I'm already being reminded how horrible I eat and i so want to retaliate but that won't solve anything.

I flipped **** on my husband through text after writing my first post here and threatend not to come back. So i know im not well. I know i need to take it but i gained 4 lbs in 6 wks.i really don't think i can take 4+ lbs. More. I wish that i was better at explaining because i know if i could I'd be doing bettet but my AD is an AP also. So I'm going to try 1/2 tonight because it is a beauty contest :'(