2 1/2 years ago I also had a psychotic break. I believed that the Lord answered ALL of my prayers (and only my prayers) if the Holy Spirit lead me to pray them. I believed that the Lord was speaking directly to me. I was laying my hands on people and speaking in tongues and casting out demons although I'm not charismatic. I would go running singing praise music at the top of my lungs thinking it would lead people to the Lord. I also believed the Lord was telling me to do some reckless things. Then, I started to believe demons were trying to get me to kill myself. The Bible that I had been reading 4 to 6 times a day started to condemn me. Needless to say, I was over the top hyper-religious and delusional. This was very traumatizing to me as a Christian because once I realized none of this was real, I couldn't determine what was real. It is still troubling to me now. How do I know if something is occurring because of my faith or because of my illness? My husband says he will ALWAYS tell because I went so mad while psychotically manic. It makes me sad nonetheless.