Thanks, everyone, for all of the hugs!!!!
Do you, anyone, think I should try to journal and not email at all, at least until next week? I tried it in the past and it didn't help but it's what my T is suggesting. I don't know how to not think about her, though. Only my Mom wanted to know all the details. I told T that. No one else in my life is going to listen to me. I feel so lost right now. Tomorrow I have yoga and swimming so that should help. But T suggested both of them to me, so I think about her then too. Not in a bad way, but she's all over, inside of me, and I feel like she betrayed me or something. Idk. I'm rambling.....
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Originally Posted by HazelGirl
I don't think there's a reason to criticize your T. She really wants what is best for you, and that is difficult for you.
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Thank you. I know she wants what's best for me, which is to not have to contact her between sessions, and to feel connected to her, like she is with me all the time. I felt that for a month or so, when she started holding my hand again, but it didn't last. I don't know what to do. I feel like she rejected me today. I wish I could just forget about her but I can't.
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Originally Posted by someone321
I'm really sorry that you had so bad session...  It sucks when T offers something at the beginning but when the time goes by, they decide to take some stuff back... |
Thank you. My T took stuff back, but at least she will hold my hand again.
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Originally Posted by stopdog
When I have a worse than usual appointment, I usually cancel more until I sort it out for myself.
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I'm happy that works for you but I want to see my T MORE, not LESS. I have to sort out being able to deal with my feelings, but not seeing her would make it worse. I don't understand you, and you know that, stopdog, but I appreciate your posting in my threads.
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Originally Posted by sweepy62
Sorry you didn't have an ideal session . We all have them. Sending you a big hug.
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Thanks, sweepy.
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Originally Posted by growlycat
Hugs, Rainbow!!! I hate those off-kilter sessions!!! It must be hard esp. since it is once every two weeks.
Is your T against notes in the mail too? Maybe you could mail a snail mail note with your thoughts to talk about next session. ?
I know how awful that disconnect can feel. Lots of hugs here. Keep talking here if you need support.
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Thank you. No, I'm sure my T would not want me to send her a note. The idea is for me to soothe myself, to internalize her being here with me, and I was starting to do that. I don't know what happened. She wants me to journal instead. I said I post here but she said there is something about handwriting?? Does anyone know about that?
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Originally Posted by RTerroni
I feel the same with my my new "therapist" and I have a feeling that my session next weel will be my last session with her.
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Thank you, RT. I understand what you're going through.