Ok, I am new here and have spent days and hours searching online and in these message boards to find answers. So far, no real luck. I am beginning to wonder if my therapist is right. Any insights would be SOOO appreciated.
I set down with a therapist that I already trust and believe is very insightful. After completing the intake, he said he believes I have PTSD. I had never really thought of that as a reason for my inability to trust people and my complete lack of boundaries (that is enough to go into, this isn't a therapy session... LOL) After listening to the criteria, I thought he might be correct. I used to have invasive thoughts of things that had occurred, but I "put them away" years ago and they really haven't bothered me in a long time. I still get small memory flashes, but I pray them away.
My biggest question to whether this is true is that people talk about being very emotional when they think about their trauma. I don't really feel anything at all. I put the situations away so long ago, I hardly think about them at all and when I do, I don't feel anything, just the knowledge that something happened.
My therapist says we are going to be using exposure therapy to deal with this, but as I research this, I am worried I am not going to have any feelings when I begin to talk about it.
Opinions of those with PTSD.... Am I just missing something or is my problem something else? I am so scared I am going to mess up therapy, if that is possible.. LOL.. (oh yes, I do have an issue with people pleasing and it would crush me if I messed up in there)