Maybe this post won't belong here but I am so angry right now...so if not I don't mind if it must be moved.

There's this show on TV that gives viewers an idea of the struggle people with addictions go through and my sister and mother have it on right now. A little background: I don't have good relationships with either of them but they do know about me being anxious and depressed. They only have one or two ideas why out of many because of the few times they went to therapy with me. Which I can count on one hand. I don't go through any of those struggles yet I identify with some of the things that are discussed on the show, like having a traumatizing childhood and unfulfilling relationships and others. Of course I can see the loved ones frustration; it's easier to see something when you're not in the situation yourself.

So here these people are on this show, talking about self harm and smoking and drinking and everything else - and what is my mother doing? Talking at the top of her voice to be sure she's heard, excitedly harping about how these people are only looking for attention. Crazy people 'don't make sense' and 'don't think straight'. I've stopped counting the incredulous 'wow's'. How if anyone doesn't want to live they should just cut harder, cut deeper. If she knew how many times I've thought of how I'd be better off. That these people 'should just get over' their pasts. All this time she is laughing.Laughing. Making snide remarks about the family, friends and coworkers who need to 'just grow a pair' - because apparently they're the only ones in pain (!!!) Unbelievable!

Oh, well clearly.

No, I'm not an addict. Still. How dare you say these things knowing I'm in the same room as you?!

Unbelievable!