well. my pdoc gave me new meds (i'm less than thrilled as i hate side effects and i seem to get them with every damn pill). he gave me a new pill brintellex in samples (so i'm sure that will cost me an arm and a leg if he decides to continue it, but i see him again in a month). he wanted to give me an old drug, an maoi, but the diet gave me anxiety (i took a low level maoi sergeline before and it didn't require major diet changes). like i started to feel like i was freaking out right there. i have small kids, i'm bound to stick something in my mouth that i'm not supposed to.

also i love cheese.

i mentioned my plan and he said he was concerned, but when i mentioned my t, he let it go. he also is debating genetic testing or something too which i know isn't cheap and probably isn't covered by my insurance. idk. something about folate and the brain?

my t was hardcore about trying avoid the hospital. managed to get another stupid agreement out of me. *sigh* so right now i'm just sort of pissed off and sitting here. he got what he wanted and i'm still struggling