It sounds like you and your T are in very different places and I would try to discuss that with the therapist (quit saying you are fine when you are not, ignoring you feel he is late and resent that, and have these questions you should ask him) change therapists and start over better with another, and/or discuss therapy types and find out for sure what type of therapy this therapist practices and decide to change types or maybe sex of therapist to see if that would be more comfortable/helpful for you. I did much better when I got a female therapist.