Omg. You pay the bills. You own the house and the cars. Smh. If you want a dog you can damn well get a dog!
I guess you don't know this but you are very much in control of your life. You got this! Lol

It reminds me of something I read the other day (I'm paraphrasing):
If you're so good at loving the wrong one, imagine how great you'd be loving the right one.

Obviously you're pretty strong and awesome. Cheers!