Fox, you are a minor, and it is going to take being truthful and open with your therapist and probably your parents in order to get medical help for your depression. You keep putting off telling even your therapist the truth, and you are backing yourself into a place where you are going to end up doing something that is going to force your hand anyway. It is time to be proactive and talk to the people who have the ability and power to get you the help you need.