It has been 5 days sense the guy I loved and wanted to spend the rest of my life with has broken my heart and our relationship due to his parents not wanting him to date me and the bible says listen to your parents. He just broke up with me and ceased all contact with me and me going crazy every time I think of him is tearing me alive.

After all of my crying and relentless sadness he decided to talk to me and me still loving him, I answered. He wanted to still be friends with me and then I said okay and we were having a regular conversations then I just let everything I was feel go and then he said he still loved me. I couldn't believed him because he's put me threw so much already and that made me even for sad then last night. We were still arguing and I was asking him what he wants me to do? And we is he ignoring me? What did I do? Why doesn't his parents like me? Then I started getting crazy and crying asking, why wasn't I good enough and this and that. I can't get him out of my mind. I loved him. He was always there for me and when I wanted to die he kept me alive. I don't even know if all that stuff that he said was just a lie and if he really did love me.

I know this is like the 4th time I've mention on here but that's all I can personally think of. It's something I don't think I can let go. He has then again ceased all communication again and that breaks me even more because I think I messed up the only chance to talk to him again. I may be really really REALLY crazy about him but it was when he was with me I felt special. I didn't have any true friends before him and I never got to express myself until he came into my life. I just don't know what to do with myself. 😢