Thanks everyone for the support. He's only addressed the issue of our baby once. He said he didn't really think about it. That the way I treated him made him feel no attachment or anything to grieve. So I asked him if he could help me grieve. He said he wouldn't even know where to start and it sounds like a bad idea to continue talking about. At that point, I said I was disappointed in him. And that I hope one day he would think about it. He ended the discussion by signing off messenger. What I really wanted to say was, look, it was a part of you too. Whatever and however I treated you doesn't justify you not caring. The baby doesn't speak for me. For sooo long I wanted to say that to him. But I never did. Venom spat out of his mouth as well. He certainly was no saint. Like the way he tells everyone that he cares and is loyal as a teddy bear. Maybe to certain women, but not to me. I haven't looked into counseling, but I'm thinking about it heavily. I met him off a dating website. It was a quick way to meet men. But I think I've realized most of those men on there are there for a reason. And that they are not good with relationships. At least that's what I have noticed. Due to the fact I didn't know I was pregnant for a month and the pain I had, left me with no choice for an abortion. I did drink when I was pregnant when I didn't know. I'm not sure how healthy my baby would of been. I probably could of had my baby if I stayed bedridden. Believe me, if I could back in time. I would of done everything I could to save that baby. No matter the consequences of my own well being. Losing a child is worse than anything in the world. I