Thank you. I feel a little better today. I have to stop thinking about my T the way I have been. It's better to think of her as just a professional, but it's so hard because we do have to have a relationship, and she's always been so friendly, in a casual, though professional way. I never seem to be able to find the middle ground, and I have to or I'll continue to go up and down with my feelings about her. I'm on the verge of tears when I think about my situation with her.

Thank you again, aloneandafraid. Yeah, those unmet needs can feel like torture when you have a nice T who "appears" to fill some of them. Maybe stopdog is right that Ts are wily. I guess I thought my T was going to be an important person in my life. She is. I thought I was going to be an important person in HER life too. Which I'm not. I'm crying when I write that. She just wants me to be able to do without her, which has been my stated goal, but I underestimated how painful that was going to be.